Day 1 PE (post Epiphany)

I just went to my social worker Mickie Kirshbaum and talked about my epiphany (ill get to it in Day 0 Flashback). As I was logging on I heard my teacher Ms. Splinter’s thoughts as she was taking attendance in her head. I heard her say my name and I walked over and said “say huh?” she claimed to have not said my name. Trippy. Brother had this happen w/ mom. She was bathing thinking of my late grandfather. He heard her entire rant. I hate no one. During lunch I talked to many friends. Ryan believes me some others do. Then there are the ones who think I’m on drugs (cough Lindsey cough Raoul). Today is a great day. My social worker was amazed.

Day 0 Flashback

Alex, Pat, Maya, Brother and I were in Janet’s room enlightening each other. Alex had her breakthrough while I was in the bathroom controlling the way I saw my eyes. First I opened my shirt and made them go neon green and fade in to natural hazel. I closed it again and the neon turned blacker than the night. I tried again later and it went orange from the pupil shooting out. This reflected the flame on my undershirt. I went back in the room (Alex and pat have left at this point) I was cuddling w/ Maya and I began seeing numbers. God speaks in numbers. I told them and they said god is speaking to you listen to him. I let go and a few minutes later I saw a matrix w/ numbers variables Greek symbols and signs of mathematics I’ve never seen before. It then shot back to the first column and began speeding across to the right. I saw a pair of eyes slowly blink. Close your eyes and open them thus opening your mind. I then began an LSD or DMT trip w/o drugs. I have never touched drugs in my life. It began with me telling them about what I just saw and they told me god is talking to me. It is my calling. Pursue the numbers as I am my brother’s balance. We talked for ten minutes and the entire time I was seeing auras and such. I thought I was seeing auras criss cross everything along with my brothers (all was blurry but his eye). As I focused these lines were the numbers and signs I was seeing before. His eye was drawing me in. as I saw his aura the shadow all over his shirt one spot was getting bright going dark and going bright again. Every time was brighter. He pulled his necklaces of magic out. “These are my magic”. It was all beautiful. I went into the bathroom to try the thing with eyes again. The shine in my pupil went into a great flash. As it left it was replaced with an iris of neon green and the pupil and whites were the purist white I have ever seen. I went back into the room and both Maya and brother’s left eyes were The Eye. (I have been seeing them as The Eye of every single living creature all of Day 1 PE). They continued telling me to pursue the numbers and everything. I went into a meditative state. My mind went blank instantly. Then The Eye appeared and I began hearing its voice. It was telling me to let go and be one with my spirit and to forgive others and be good and pursue the numbers. Balance my brother. When I came out of it, it turned out he was talking to me. We talked more and more and at the same time I received a text from pat that he had also had a revelation. (It was of a different kind but still nifty) I went down the hall to MY room to grab my notebook but it wasn’t there so as I was walking back I felt the ground become squishy. I looked down and I was walking on The Eye and I took another step right into the pupil and all of my chakras aligned and it was the greatest feeling ever. I went back and my brother said “I’m going to play music for you then I want u to describe where your mind goes.” He played voodoo child by Jimi Hendrix (but I didn’t realize this until after he told me). As it played I began falling through the air at a slow gliding float through the clouds. As I was spiraling down I began to see a mountain. It then morphed into The Eye. It blinked and began falling apart. As I approached it, it reformed into an island and I went into the water. It was the clearest water I have ever seen but at the same time it bubbled as though carbonated with multicolored bubbles. The bubbles then turned into millions of The Eye. The Eye began swirling and changing and it was amazing. Then they became like a row of eight cat eyes and blinked sideways then the swirling all went crazy and lasted the rest of the song and then I came out of the distance of it and back into reality. Then after much meditation that night I managed to let go of all hate.

Day 3 PE

I hung out with matrick today. maya was looking at me and saw my left eye the way i see it and my right eye blue. either im changing my eyes on the next level or she is beggining too. its wonderful! ILOVEMATRICK!! also i finished my pic of her today. its so cute. natural DMT trip continues. i love maya and pat so much.....



Friday december 12.

dude what the fuck! i just wrote a shit load of realy good stuff and lost it all!. poop.parents are being stupid. they tell me they dont want my bro influencing me and want me to pursue the right path and happiness. they dont let me see him my lifes path will be fucked. my journey will become extremely difficult. when i look into peoples Eye i see their soul and very few arent lost. if they have their way itll make me lost again, and i dont ever wanna go back to that blind ignorance. when i draw i meditate so i can see my future self without knowing what it looks like then draw it. in one there was a bunch of symbolic and mathematical code and i cracked it. needa work on getting it on this. sophie is talking to me(at school) but she is like 3 months too late. people are so lost, especially stupid atheistic/ignostic teens. morons. i love matrick. also good at dancing can be one with the music now. yay. I LOVE MAYA ANGELA WOLF WITH A BURNING PASSION!!!!! she at The State right now. lucky jerkotch. friend of the family died from huffing dustoff. ='[. funeral tomorrow. according to all people i know who have done psychadelics say im glowing. and found. they are as well as are animals and plants and those who i see who arent lost. free writing=fun music= love. playing piano on table? I SHOULD FREE PLAY! dude. icky fart. damn you butt! damn you to the stinky abyss of my flatulence!!!!! wow random much? I LOVE YOU WORLD BUT I HATE YOUR SOCIETY'S BLIND MATERIALISM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! maya is an incredible artist. i love she. hehe. and pardvark.(patrick) when i get my deviant art working ill put a link for you to see. dude 21 views and 0 comments?! what the fuck nuggett?! ya thats right two g's and t's. today at school my hat won. epicly. i dont wanna be a part of our society its blind evil sickens me. i wanna be one with everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dude sober(other than what my brain secretes;]) psychadelics is amazing. if u think im skytzo then ur the insanely dumb dumdum. poo song over. restart! wait no. VIVA LA VIDA! dude im so pissed i lost all the writing i lost . i enjoy free writing this is a good new passtime. dude my brain's right hemisphere is getting so much stronger. im so happy now. i wanna call my dad....i dont want him in my life but i want him to know his son loves him. ='[. hi people. dude i am a wierdo! but thats ok i love it. i enjoy being me. im very proud of my art but maya's kick's mines anus! epicly so!HER ART IS SPARTA BIACH! ugh. i dun wanna sleep.


december 15, 2008
my mom realy needs to start believing in her children. i told her today that i normally force my mind into believing its like 80 degrees outside so i was fine when i was wearing a hoodie today and she bitched me out. she yelled "YOUR FULL OF SHIT NOW GO GET A JACKET!!!!" wtf ya know? anyway yesterday after i dropped my maya off i came back and watched Hidalgo. near the end of it i lit two candles one to feed passion and the other life. i also burned some incense. all of these were offerings to the great spirit as i asked for help in cleansing myself both spiritualy and physically. i then meditated for a few minutes. i then began manipulating the flame on the passion candle with the power of my fucking mind! im for now on doing this everyday its fun. ive always wanted to be a pyrokinetic.


N1663R84ST (11:57:22 PM): i have officially made my decision on somethin g very important
N1663R84ST (11:57:58 PM): ya wanna know what?
xxwolfityxx (11:58:04 PM): oooooh yus yus yus
xxwolfityxx (11:58:06 PM): !
N1663R84ST (11:58:39 PM): ok for starters i keep having wolves when i meditate and sleep and i also had an eye opening dream....
xxwolfityxx (11:58:52 PM): ooo
N1663R84ST (11:58:52 PM): sahy ur words
N1663R84ST (11:59:10 PM): and you know how i was saying im refalling for sophie and such yus?
xxwolfityxx (11:59:16 PM): yus
N1663R84ST (11:59:32 PM): and how i said i have little doubt that one of the two of u is my soulmate and such?
xxwolfityxx (11:59:39 PM): yeah
N1663R84ST (12:01:13 AM): well no matter WHAT im not going to leave u. i know that if i have met my soulmate youre it. i had a dream where its one of those ones where u fall asleep dream that u dream and wake up and live a day. first dream of two yesterday pat killed u sophie and jeff and i thought it was real and ended with me running from him till i got hit by a trian
N1663R84ST (12:01:17 AM): the second one
xxwolfityxx (12:01:53 AM): aww poor patty
xxwolfityxx (12:02:03 AM): everyone has dreams like that about him...
N1663R84ST (12:04:04 AM): was as realistic and it was LONG. we got back together and such and it went through our highschool years. then on dec12 2012 at 1111 we were holding eachother and were married and then earth was hit by a supernova. instant death. painless. and the masses of the world came to be infront of god at the end of the flash. he then sent us all on a continuation of our journey. there has to be an end otherwise there would be an infinite amount of lives for us and we could never complete it. then we were soulmates and lived many lives together and the first one we had was us as wolves and we grew up and became mates and were wild and in the woods and it was beautiful
N1663R84ST (12:04:11 AM): BEST DREAM OF MY LIFE
N1663R84ST (12:04:17 AM): and longest
xxwolfityxx (12:05:14 AM): wow
xxwolfityxx (12:05:23 AM): thats awesome
xxwolfityxx (12:05:26 AM): like wow
N1663R84ST (12:05:38 AM): ya i know right!?!?!?!?
N1663R84ST (12:05:52 AM): the wolf life was the coolest most beaultifulest thing ever
xxwolfityxx (12:06:01 AM): details!!!
xxwolfityxx (12:06:07 AM): -bounce bounce-
N1663R84ST (12:06:39 AM): and not only one of our eyes was the Eye but on both of us we had both eyes like it and i was head of pack and u were my mate but i had no lust for anyother wolf and our spirits had become linked
N1663R84ST (12:06:56 AM): it was SO epic
xxwolfityxx (12:07:29 AM): thats rly rly epic XD
xxwolfityxx (12:07:33 AM): like rly cool
N1663R84ST (12:07:38 AM): twas beautiful
N1663R84ST (12:07:42 AM): \as was the wedding
N1663R84ST (12:08:13 AM): at each dance through highschool and at our wedding we got to dance to i will follow you into the dark'
N1663R84ST (12:08:27 AM): we then found we werent ganna follow into the dark but the light
xxwolfityxx (12:08:48 AM): lol -hugs- thats awesome